I am a new Muslim. I am writing to tell you 'why' I
converted to Islam, but it's going to be more like 'how.'
Last year, at
the age of 23, I was trying to open an import/export company to sell children's
books overseas. Much thought went into my decision to work with Saudi Arabia
above any other country. After contacting the Saudi Arabia Commercial Office at
the Royal Embassy in Washington DC, I learned that all contracts with my sponsor
must be in Arabic to be binding. That prompted me to study Arabic so I would
know what I was signing. I went to a local language school where I took classes
with a private tutor named Suad. She was one of the nicest people I ever met as
well as one of the most religious. All the books, tapes, and videos that I
studied from centered on Islam (Ifta Ya Sim Sim, etc.), so without realizing it
I was learning about Islam all along! I was not brought up with any religious
indoctrination. I knew the basics, but I had never gone to church.
The
same time this was going on, I was having the hardest time in my life. I was on
the east coast and my family was on the west coast, the friends I had were not
acting like the 'quality' kind of people I knew I needed to hang around with,
and I had really difficult money problems (who doesn't). I was crying almost
every day. I never felt more alone in my life. It was affecting my job and my
Arabic classes. Suad noticed, and she was always there to listen. She gave the
best advice (Islamic), and she was always right. She told me that if I just
submitted myself to God completely, he would take away all the pain and
loneliness I was feeling. That was on a Thursday. That night, I asked God to
help me, when I woke up the next day I felt completely relieved of all my pain.
I could say "God will take care of it" out loud and mean it. I spent that
weekend talking to Suad about Islam and I learned that I knew more about Islam
than I thought! On Sunday I did my Shahada at an Islamic Women's Group meeting.
The next Friday, January 20, 1995, after the noon prayer, I did my open Shahada
at the Masjid Dal Hijrah in Falls Church, Virginia. Ramadhan started shortly
after that, and I went to Mecca for Umrah at the end of Ramadhan (last 10 days).
It has been the best thing I ever did in my life and I never looked back.
My experiences with Islam have shown me that if you follow God's
direction (awkward to call it law because it's much more than that) you will
have everything you need and often what you want, enshallah. Faith in Allah is
the best advantage anyone could ever give themselves!
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