My conversion to Islam has been intellectual and emotional.
My parents have both been educated at the university-level. My mother is a
Christian convert (she was atheist), and my father has personal beliefs. My
family is rather rich.
Ever since I was very young, I've been interested
by political questions. I enjoyed reading history books, although I was confused
a little bit between military history and politics. I called myself a communist,
but today I wouldn't say I knew what it means. Over time, I learned real
politics and sociology, but when the communist bloc fell, I admitted my error
and was no longer a fan of the communist states. I became agnostic, and thought
that all human beings are condemned to egotism and to ignorance of some
questions, like the existence of God. I learned philosophy. I wanted to avoid
doing the same mistakes as in the past, and so I refused all dogmas. At this
time occured the separation of my parents, and also other personal problems. To
forget all this, I spent a lot of time in laughing with (fake) friends,
drinking, and then smoking cigarettes, then hash. I sometimes took hard drugs
(heroin, LSD, and some other poisons). Despite this, I passed my baccalaureat
(this is an exam that ends four years of college and gives the right to continue
graduate level study at the university). By chance, I had to go at the army (we
do not have the choice in the country I live in). The strict rules I could not
avoid there were a very good thing for me; also, I was tired enough to enjoy
simple things as eating and sleeping. Alhamdulillah (praise be to God), my
Back in civil society, I spent one more dark year: I
always had the temptation of my bad habits, and I felt that life was very
superficial after the big efforts and the friendship of the army. I began
feeling the necessity of something else in my life. Then one of my sisters, back
from a journey to Syria, gave me a book. This book, written in my language, is a
gift she received there. Its author, who had titled it "The Bible, Quran and
Science", wanted to show that there are in the Quran some things that were
simply impossible for a human being to know at the time the Quran was revealed.
Conclusion: the authenticity of the Quran is proved, scientifically proved. The
first thing I thought after having read the book was: "Oh! It would be super!"
-- I was ready for a change in my way of life.
I bought a translation of
the Quran to compare. Before having entirely read it, I had become a Muslim,
alhamdulillah. As you can see, a psychologist wouldn't have any problem to
explain what he would call my choice. For me, all things come from God and He
had written this for me, He had chosen these means to make me accept Islam.
Alhamdulillah! What no psychologist can see is what happens in my heart when I
read the Quran: faith has little to do with what one feels in front of a